Richfield Light Parade '10

Every December Richfield has a light parade. It isn't anything super fancy but it is fun to go out and see some floats covered with lights. Here are a few pics that actually turned out. But even then it is still kinda hard to really see em.






The two above were kinda cool one was a tent with a bunch of flags around it and the other was a bunch of welders, Basically the welders didn't have very many lights they made sparks! I really thought that was different and unique.



Every yr this has always been the last float. Good 'ol Coke a Cola and Santa.

Its kinda funny that I would rather live somewhere else but every yr I kinda miss the small light parade. (I think there were 30 floats) I guess its just memories of being a little kid and being there with Grandparents and Family. Usually when we went we would sit in front of Dad's work and have doughnuts and hot chocolate while watching the parade.

Silly Peanut

I really have to say that my father in laws dog is a silly and an extremely funny one. Either today or yesterday we were just sitting around and we noticed that Peanut was chewing on a string and every time he tried to put more in his mouth his arm would come up because somehow he had got the string around it.



I know it is kinda hard to tell on the video, but it is still funny.

Getting Ready for Christmas!

Skyeler and I have slowly been upgrading our Christmas tree. Our first Christmas it was this tiny $1.00 thing. Needless to say we really haven't been in the Christmasy mood for quite a while. But here are a few pictures to show you how we have been upgrading!



Here is all 3 of our tree's in order starting at the left. (that is if you can see the first one)



Here is the tiny tree! isn't it cute.



Our 2nd tree that we use for our 2nd and 3rd Christmas. With our stockings.



Now our most recent tree that we are using for our 4th Christmas together. Of course it looks better in person but oh well.

Finished Dog House

I know a while back we finished the Dog/Cat house but here are some pics of the final product. I have to say that it is amazing. Honestly who can say that they have insulation, carpet, and a second level on their dog house? Well I can!





We finally took the chair away so peanut would stop sleeping on it instead of sleeping in his house. Really you'd think that if we went through all that time and effort to build this awesome house that he would sleep on his pillow and blanket in his house.

Anniversary celebration

I have to say that I had everything perfect for when Sky got home. Dinner was ready and the table was set. I was so excited to surprise him with dinner and the fact I was there. It was so much fun especially since Sky called me on his while he was on his last break and I was right in front of his work. It was so hard to not tell him I was there.



Picture of Sky after he got off work.



The Yummy chocolate raspberry brownie pudding.



Homemade soup and homemade bread.


For the most part everything was perfect. Skyeler ended up having one of his migraine headaches and only ended up eating maybe 3 bites of everything before he had to go lay down. But he did have everything for breakfast and it was great.

So it has been a memorable anniversary. Stuck doing homework all day while Sky was working his 12 hr shift in Nephi, I drove through a snow storm so I could make a yummy dinner that he only ate 3 bites of. YAY!! But even after all that I love Skyeler even more.

Thank you Kara for helping me with the bread and setting everything up and letting us use your home since we couldn't have dinner at ours.

Happy 3rd Anniversary!

I can't believe how fast time has been going. Skyeler and I have now been married 3 yrs.

Looking back on the day of Nov. 10, 2007... It was a warm day unlike today (Its snowing) and it everything was perfect. Even though Sky was late getting to the temple. Ya, you would think that the brides were late or not showing.



Here is one of my favorite pics of Sky and I outside the Manti Temple.




We are on the stairs going up to the old front doors of the temple



Sitting on the grass in front of the Temple



This yr as I mentioned before it was snowing this morning. Skyeler ended up setting his alarm to pm instead of am and was late getting to work. I've been at the school all day trying to do a take home test for my Psychology Stats class. Horrible. So I've been frustrated and very emotional since Skyeler isn't here with me on this special day. Soooo..

I have called my cousin Kara who lives in Nephi and we are going to do something special. I will drive up there and we are going to make Clam Chowder, Bread, and a Raspberry brownie pudding for Sky. Technically Sky and I already celebrated our anniversary by going to dinner last night and exchanging gifts.

Sky got his gift about a month ago and it was a nice tool for his crafts. Skyeler bought my gifts yesterday and I ended up with the new Chris Heimerdinger book and a Blue Topas white gold ring. Very beautiful.

I will take pics and show you once I take them of our wonderful but interesting anniversary.

November 3rd

Today is November 3rd and exactly 3 yrs ago plus a couple hours I went through the Bountiful temple for my first time. It was an interesting weekend because Skyeler had come up early and I had planned to go to a Halloween party with my best friends Katrina and Mina. While Sky and I were at dinner we noticed that Skyeler had forgotten to get his temple recommend signed by either the bishop or stake president. So we missed the party and drove down to Richfield, got the recommend signed and drove back up.



Here is a Pic of Becky, Will, Skyeler, Me, dad, and Kandie.


Ooh random weird idea thingy. Does anyone think Sky kinda looks like Joe Jonas?? I do especially when he puts on thick rimmed glasses.

Spoiled Dog.

I know all of you know Penut. Well he is quite spoiled along with Milo the cat.

This weekend has been basically making a Dog/Cat house for Penut and Milo so they can stay outside this winter. Well this dog/cat house is HUGE and quite heavy. We got the frame from our neighbor and we just needed to put a roof and walls on. We have done all that plus put carpet and insulation in. (pics are in reverse order of what I wanted)



This is close to done. Yes it still isn't done yet.



Here is the Cat section. Notice the carpet samples.



Me doing my part.



Skyeler's Muscles



Earliest pic I have. I've noticed I tend to forget to take before pics. I did this with the spare room to. But here is proof of the insulation.

I'll show you the final product after we finish it.

Vegas Trip (Switchfoot)

This past weekend Skyeler and I wanted to go visit Ryan, Alex, and Switchfoot. But mostly Ryan and Alex. :) So we left Friday and headed down. On our way a lovely but large orange barrel jumped out from the side of the road and hit our passenger side mirror. Can you believe that. Well the mirror broke off and Skyeler made me drive the rest of the way. I wasn't to happy about it because I had to take a test that night for one of my classes, and I was actually studying. Grr, but I did get us to Henderson in one piece. We just had to turn around a couple times since I got really confused with the directions Ryan gave me beforehand. Oh well. We got there and that is all that matters.

We really enjoyed out time there seeing some new things and eating at this authentic mexican restaurant. Basically this restaurant had foods from all over Skyelers mission. He was so happy and excited about it. Plus the Horchata was excellent. Christmas in a cup as Ryan would describe it. I never thought that rice water could be so yummy.

Saturday, we decided to split up a little bit. Ryan, Skyeler, and Kavan went to Frys a huge electronic store while Alex and I went to the Mall. I really enjoyed my girl time since I don't get it to often... Once we got home we decided that we would head over to this huge park where the Bite of Las Vegas was happening so we could all go to a concert. I enjoyed the time there and was very excited for Skyeler to see his favorite band Switchfoot. I guess the only negative parts of it was some drunk people trying to get in front of us and this one girl saying F this and F that constantly. I was so happy and relieved to find out that another group of LDS people were right behind us. YAY!! So when I got lost from our group because all these people were butting in I felt a little comfort knowing that they were there.

Here are some pics.







For some reason it seemed Like Alex got all the good pics. Every time I took one her's was awesome and mine had a drunk guys hand in my way. (true story)

I was glad to leave. All the pounding was giving me quite a headache and I was quite tired of the F word.

Sunday was relaxing, after Ryan and Alex got home from church.. (We slept in a little) We were able to play Rummy cub. It was quite fun especially when Ryan was trying to make his tiles look all cool.







YAY, Tilted tiles.

When we were getting ready to leave Skyeler had one of his I don't feel good I'm bound to have a migraine (if that is what he gets) moments. Needless to say I had to drive us out of Vegas. :( Seriously don't let me drive in big places that i'm not use to. Once we got to Mesquite Sky was feeling alot better. I was happy cause I don't like seeing Sky all sick and icky.

Thanks for all the fun Ryan and Alex. We will have to do it again.

Break-dancing dog!

As most of you guys know my father in law has a cute little jack russel named Penut. Well one of our most favorite activities is to tease the dog. Recently I've been putting a towel around either his head or body and squeak a pink rubber duck and watch him run around or try to jump while engulfed in a towel. So funny! Maybe I'll record that next.

The little video I have is of Penut with the pink rubber duck tied to his back with the leash. ENJOY!




Another favorite is when he is trying to get the rubber duck from under the couch!

The Joys of Laundry

Ok if none of you have found some kind of joy in doing laundry (besides having clean clothes) I will tell you a joy I just had.

It is freezing in my room since I had the window open to freshen things out a bit. So needless to say it kept getting colder and colder while trying to do some stuff on the computer. Well I realized that my laundry is probably done and so I go up stairs and get my clothes from the dryer. Run downstairs and instantly get into my pj's that I just washed. The warm tinglies just go all over and I warmed myself up very quickly with my sweats, shirt, and jacket that all came from the nice warm dryer.

:)the joy of doing laundry. You guys should try it some time. I highly recommend it!

Remodeling spare room

Here are a few pics of the remodeling we are doing in the spare room. For those of you who haven't seen this room I will tell you about it since I forgot the before pics. This room had a bluish tint on the paneling and sheet rock underneath. NO insulation. The walls that we have been working on are the outside walls.



This pic is when we were taking off all the sheet rock and taking everything outside of the room.




After removing the sheet rock we noticed that there were only 2x2 boards for the joists. So we needed to add to it and Sky hand nailed (we didn't have a nail gun) more 2x2's everywhere so we could fit insulation in the joists.



Here we started putting up the sheet rock. Let me tell you the bottom was a pain since the cement is completely uneven. But we did well for our first time doing this. (alone that is. I've helped other people but i just did what they said)



Here obviously we have started to mud the seams etc. I did a little since I have homework that has to get done today. So Sky and Chris did the rest. So we have 3 out of the 4 walls sheet rocked. One wall needs to some mud but we will wait since Chris hasn't decided on a certain removal of part of that wall. The last wall will have to wait for a while since we want to make the bathroom a little bit bigger.

Its going to be a long time before we actually get things looking super nice but we will get it done. Carpet in our room will be coming soon and the left overs will go into the spare room. (we still need insulation in our room)

I guess technically we are not remodeling since everything is staying the same but we are updating and improving it.

PIcs of Skyeler in Porter Rockwell movie

Well everyone I just wanted to post some pictures of Skyeler when he was filming in Porter Rockwell. I want to thank everyone who has shown support and interest when we played the movie for everyone at Dad and Kandie's a while back. I am very proud of Skyeler and his talents. He is an amazing guy and I hope that he gets to do what he wants in life (acting) and support his family with what he loves. I would like you guys to go to www.imdb.com and look up Skyeler Lucero. Why, because he is on there!!!!

I hope you enjoy these photos!



This one is just on set. I don't think Sky is in there anywhere but it does show what it was like. (sorta)



I'm not sure what costume is for what character but he was the Echo Canyon Trooper 1 and the Mule Soldier 1. You would have to ask Sky what the 1 actually means but I guess it is really impressive!!



Again I hope you enjoyed these. I know its been a while since he actually filmed the movie but I just saw them on the camera when I was doing the book post.

Books continued.

Back in July I posted about how much I was reading and I kept thinking that on that post it had a question of "I wonder how many pages I could read before school started". I figured that since I am doing homework that I would take a break and tell you. (since I remembered and actually have my computer in front of me).

My grand total of completed books is 7 and those 7 books came out to being 5,196 pages. By the time school started I was in the middle of my 8th book and I was about 142 pages in. So my Grand grand total is ...... 5,338 pages. Again that was between the very end of May / beginning of June to the end of August.



This is approx the size of all my books on top of each other, you'll notice the top is the princess bride. I haven't read that one but it was the closest in size to the "Warbreaker" book that I don't have anymore since I haven't bought it yet and returned the one I had to Tyler. So there you have it. That was as many pages/books that I could read until school started. I've enjoyed it mucho and I miss reading my fun books. If text books were more interesting or written like a good fantasy book, I would be reading them a lot more and probably doing better in school.

Come on people I'm married!

Ok, there are a couple of things that I find very weird right now. One is that the past two times I have gone on a walk with Skyeler, some crazy guy will either say OH YEAH!! as he passes or at least look back to check me out. Interestingly enough both times I was holding Skys hand as we walked. Why do guys check girls out when they know they are with someone since they are HOLDING HANDS!

Another thing I find weird and interesting is that one of my ex-bf little sister, will usually email me or chat with me, wanting to hang out. The conversation usually is the same. She starts the conversation and I ask her how she is doing. She will then say she misses me and we should hang out. I'll usually say "Its been a while" (Like hmmm.... 4 yrs). Afterwords she will say that I was her favorite gf that _____ had and then I'll ask her "what about _____ wife? how do you like her". She says she is ok but likes me better. That her sis-in-law gets on her nerves. Then the conversation usually turns to school and things like that. OOh and this time I did get an invite to WX High's school musical. This yr it is Les Mes. and they are performing in Feb. I got the dates and everything. I guess I mainly find this weird because hmm.... usually you don't talk to or invite your bro's ex gf to family events when both individuals are married!! Anyway If it wasn't so weird I'd be glad to talk to them more because they really are amazing people but I just can't get around the weirdness.

Funny thing is this isn't even the start of it. For one I still once in a while talk to a different ex-bf that I dated for 2 yrs and Sky and I took him to the Manti pageant once. But a totally different weird thing is when a different ex-bf from the ones mentioned previously kept trying to win me back even though I'M MARRIED (he knew it to) by bringing up things that happened while hanging out and telling me his feelings for me that he hasn't been able to get over me still, texting me daily. Usually starting around 8 am and it was usually hello beautiful or good morning gorgeous. Then he sent me a pic of him half naked. IT was from the waist up. but still INAPPROPRIATE! After that pic I told him not to contact me anymore. So far so good. So what is it with some people trying to hook up or look at married individuals.

In no way am I trying to make myself feel good about all this. But it was just weird because as of TONIGHT (technically last night since it is 1:30 am and my date will be off) I got the check out from random passerby and and ex-bf sister wanting to hang out. Then it was only 2 weeks ago that some other random guy called out from a yellow car as Sky and I were walking.

Please tell me you guys have had this happen to you.

Just can't focus.

So trying to baby sit and do homework really isn't working out. I'm feeling stressed at times because I'm not getting things done. Lets see how my schedule goes. wake up early to just so I can go upstairs and wait for baby to cry so I can feed her, after I do that I get her dressed and watch tv until I need to feed her again then. I then turn the tv back on and watch some more. OK so basically it isn't the baby that is making me not study. It's the horrible TV!! I just LOVE the Disney channel. My favorites are "Wizards of Waverly Place", "Phineas and Ferb" and I'm getting use to the other things that are on. But since Kara and Josh has the DVR I have a huge selection of my favorite cartoons.

K question, can live kids shows be considered cartoons? Or is it just the animated ones. Either way I love kid shows. Poor Sky he was stuck watching Handyman Manny with me. HE HE. I actually like that show but it drove him crazy cause it was a little kid show.

Ooooh funny story. Sky bought the Jurassic Park series and had to watch all 3 with Kavan. I was so so on watching it and when they went to finish up the last 30 min of the last one I decided to go watch my Phineas and Ferb. So I turn it on (this was at our house so I couldn't pick what episode I wanted) and coincidentally Phineas, Ferb, and Candice had time traveled back to pre-historic times and was face to face with the T-Rex. So much for not wanting to watch dinosaurs chase after people and try to eat them. Needless to say Phineas, Ferb, and Candace managed to get away from the dinosaur by jumping on their scooter and wearing turtles as helmets. It must be hard for Phineas to wear any kind of hat since his head is like a 90 degree triangle.

But anyway it is after 12 and I have a couple test to take tomorrow and I still need to read the 50 page or so chapter.

Good Experience

This week has been and will be an interesting one. On Tuesday Skyeler and I woke up at 5am so we could make it to Nephi by 6:30 so my cousin Kara could be to work by 7. The reason why we came up is because while Kara's husband is gone and while Sky is at work I am babysitting Regan Kara and Josh's cute 11 week old baby. Tuesday I got to baby sit for a whole 10 hrs. Just me and baby. It was a bit intimidating but I lived. Today it won't be quite so long because I still had to go to class. But tomorrow will be a normal 8 or so hrs then Friday Kara gets home around 12 so it will be a short day.

I think trying to watch an infant and do homework is challenging. Especially since Regan loves to just cuddle and be held or have attention the entire time. I figured she would just sleep the entire time and I would get some quality homework time in. NOPE! But it has been a good experience and I'm glad that I am getting a heads up for when Sky and I have kids. I do know that I want to finish my degree before kids. But if I don't get what I want, I will improvise and do my best. It will just be a little harder with kids if I do online classes. Then probably impossible if I have regular classes.

I think my reasoning on why I want to wait is because I want to feel that I am there 24-7 for my kids and not feeling that I have to put them aside and do homework. Especially when you have timed tests and if a baby starts crying you have to make a choice. (no-worries I'm waiting for Kara to get home before I think about doing my test) Yesterday I was trying to do my math homework that is Online and that was hard enough.

So funny story, (well funny to me) Skyeler has a class that is requiring him to blog. HE HE HE HE HE. He has been one of those individuals that just sit and watch his wife blog and think that is dumb but if she likes it that her thing. So he is blogging now and you can see what he has to do with his class on his blog. The URL is something like skyelerlucerocareerporfolio.blogspot.com or something like that. You might want to check it out before class ends and he deletes it.

Broadcast Classes

First day of school went great. Especially since I only have 2 classes that I have to worry about getting to. The rest are online. I'm not really sure what to think about broadcast classes though. It is the closest thing I can get to a regular face to face class but with intersting annoyances. For example we have to talk into a mike and you never know whether or not they can hear you becaus nothing really indicates so. Then at times you speak and then you can hear it from their end. Another is when you watch yourelf on a tiny screen under the teachers screen for the intire class period. Its a good thing that the other areas don't watch your screen as well. You mainly have 3 areas to look at. 1 big area for the lecture stuff or whatever the teacher is doing. Then the two small screens for your camera and the teachers.

I really haven't been able to look at my online classes yet but it will be interesting since this is my first semester ever with online. I hope I can keep track of everything. We will see, I just want to be done and not have to worry about school ever again for myself. Well that is broadcast for ya. I'll let you know how my online classes go once I really start working on them.

Taking care of business

Recently I feel that I have been taking care of everyone and everything. I've FINALLY got Skyeler registered for some classes thank goodness. It was kind of a pain cause he waited so long, and he needed online so the options drastically decreased. but after being on a couple waiting list I got him in a psych 1010 and public speaking. Who ever thought they would have online public speaking. I know many people have done it but whats the point? Things I have also taken care of is my scholarship I was awarded, and all sorts of financial aid stuff for both sky and I. Oh and I've also bought most of my books. that reminds me I still need about 2 books. OOOH and I talked to someone at the school about that stats program that I needed well I guess the school will take care of it so that means I don't have to buy a $200 comp. program for only one semester that I will probably only use a couple times. YAY!!

People I have taken care of includes: Skyeler of course! Kavan and Ammon by cooking dinner and cleaning up the house and buying food while Chris is at work. Mom has had a few doc. appointments and surgery to remove a couple lumps, so good ol' Sky and I picked her up and had to get her prescription from the store, and I'll probably have to go with her to the doc. to get the results. Gram W. fell out of bed so since I was the closest I had to go try to get her off the floor and see if she was ok. Then this weekend Sky and I get to help Kathy out by cleaning and maybe cooking some yummy dinners. We'll see if she actually lets us clean up.

I'm excited for tomorrow we are going to go take care of more things up in Orem and get Skys school books and fingure out the last little bit of our financial aid. Were going to have my necklace inspected that Sky got me for V-day. Then we will go to the mall and buy a limited amount of clothes for school. I'm just happy to be out of Richfield for a little bit. It got really boring around here while Sky was at work and our power went out and messed up our internet and cable. Needless to say I've finished another book making 7 books and 5,196 pages. Yup I know a lot. Just think once school starts I'll be trying to avoid reading. :) Actually I'll need to do better this semester and make sure to get good grades for my scholarship. I have to at least have a 3.0 and I usually make that but I don't want to take any chances. It basically is paying for my school books this yr.

Moving Forward

I am basically ready for school!! YAY. I'm excited actually. I am all registered and ready to start. Only thing is that I have to buy my books and I really don't want to. Its going to be pricey this semester. For my stats for behavioral science or psychology stats I have to get this extra thing that is 200 bucks. It is called PASW Gradpac 18 also known as SPSS, does anyone know what this is? Because for my stats class alone there are 2 books and this thing. plus I have 4 other classes. Good thing I might get a scholarship so I can pay for books and not have to use all that loan money.

Skyeler finally got a job and his dad will be starting at a mine soon as well. They both got jobs within days of each other. Thank goodness! Maybe we can finally support ourselves and not have to depend on the government for basics. Skyeler will be working in Nephi at that HUGE building on the south side. It is called Fiber Tech and they make the insulation and ship it out. As of now Skyeler is an on call but he has been getting a lot of hours especially since they are 12 hr shifts! Since starting on Wednesday he has been scheduled for 7 days. He will be making approx $10 an hour depending on if he has the day or night shift. Also we will be getting insurance soon!! yay. I'm excited about that. This company pays the entire premium for sky and about 50% for dependents. If you want to know more about the job just talk to Sky, i'm sure he would love to talk about it. He has been enjoying work and the company is a good one. They have high LDS standards and are very kind to their employees. Just ask him about holiday pay!!

As of now I'm still holding off on really looking for a job. I want to make sure that this new type of schooling is going to work out and that I didn't over do things by taking 16 credits with online and broadcast stuff. But one class is a music class so it should be easy. I'm taking it so I can transfer it back to UVU and have my associates. I think I was short 1 credit. LAME!

I'm very glad that I feel that life is finally moving forward and that Sky has a good job so when we finally do move away from Richfield we will be able to support ourselves and not be so poor!!

Why can't I be ready for school now

Things are starting to look better on the school side. I finally got my acceptance letter from USU. That means I was able to hand in that scholarship application on time!!! But once I went to register I hit road bump after road bump. I kept emailing my advisor on who to email for what etc.. etc.. umm.. hold the phone....

Ok that was weird that was this random boom that came from outside and I have no idea what it was.

But anyway, my advisor has been really helpful and I've been able to get a lot of things done for school. But I still have to wait for my transcripts to be put into action so I can register. I keep getting a prerequisite error.

On a plus side, Sky got a job in Nephi. It is a backup job for now so I'm not sure how much he will actually be working. But he has another job interview tomorrow at a grocery store. I'll let you know more about Skys job when I know more. But we think Chris might have a job at a mine soon. So yay jobs mean more home improvements!! Home improvements mean a new door that isn't half way invisible!!

Books

I don't know if any of you have ever felt like a Disney Princess or not but the past little bit I have felt like one in particular. Can anyone guess who it might be??? Well I kinda feel Like Belle from Beauty and the Beast. Probably because 1. It is one of my favorite movies ever. 2. I've been reading A LOT!!!! 3. I'm kind of wanting more out of life. I think that Belle felt stuck where she was and nothing was moving forward in life. Hmm... Well I feel kind of stuck since we moved and nothing has been going forward. Maybe that is why I've been reading so much.

Anyway as of now I have read approximately 3,091 pages since the beginning of June and the number will surely increase drastically over the next few weeks. I am on my 5th book. So every book as roughly around 700 pages. The first book I read was The Wizards First Rule by Terry Goodkind. That book had 820 pages. Next was The Stone of Tears also by Terry Goodkind, having 979 pages. After finishing these two I wanted to continue reading the 12 or so book series but I would have to probably buy all the book and we have no money for that and some of the content in the books were kinda iffy. But I really loved the magic and fantasy about it so after talking with Tyler he has loaned me a good 10 books. I have now read two of them by the Author Brandon Sanderson, who is LDS and an very good fantasy author. The books I've read are Elantris consisting of 615 pages and Misborn which has 643 pages. I'm now 34 pages in continuing the Misborn trilogy with The Well of Ascension. The Well of Ascension has 763 pages. The next and final book in that trilogy is The Hero of Ages and that book has 724 pages. So once I finish this trilogy I will have read over 4500 pages all within one summer vacation. Yay for me!!!

If any of you out there has some really good books let me know. But I will tell you that I still have 8 more books from Tyler that I need to read first. But knowing me and how much I have been reading I will have them read fairly soon. I wonder how many pages I will have read before school starts??

Almost ready

I am finally feeling a little bit better about school coming up fast. I went and talked to the advisor for this area and I feel alot better. I still haven't gotten my acceptance letter yet and I don't know when that is going to come. But it better hurry fast because I need it in order to figure everything else out. But at least I know how to register, figure out books, this and that and basically what to expect. Also I was given a scholarship application. They have about $4o,000 for the South west region. So I think that I'm bound to get something if they give each person anywhere from 500-1000 bucks. At least it would pay for books. But I still feel worried because I don't have everything ready. But slowly but surely I'm going to be ready.

Job hunting isn't going the best. There are some jobs that seem interesting but I feel unqualified for them, but these jobs would give me experience in the psychology job field, but I'm totally unqualified but....... Other than that its just getting my butt in gear and going and putting in an application for the butt wiping crew. OH JOY!! ( I hope you can see my sarcasm) It would be a job. And anything is better than what we have now. I just hate feeling this stressed and overwhelmed. I still feel that I hate life even though I'm getting over it slowly. I just want something to happen. A job, school, something!!!! I hate feeling like your life is on hold and that all you do is waste your life away with nothing. That your going nowhere. I'm sure you know what I'm feeling.

Back to Reality

I am feeling quite overwhelmed recently, do you think it could be that my entire life has changed? I'm thinking yes. But at least I have had a nice break from everything. As you already know we moved down here June 30th. Well we spent maybe about a day and a half here getting some things ready. I got our bedroom ready so we don't have boxes to look through when trying to find something to wear and Skyeler got his Mustang ready to work on. Then Friday the 2nd we packed up for a good while and left for Blanding. We decided that since we hadn't been down there in 6 or so months it was about time for a visit and so we spent the 4th of July there. That Saturday we watched the parade, and afterwards we went on a Hike where my poor neck got so burnt that to this day over a week later I still have it and it still hurts at times. Oh and it is peeling like no other still. But long story short it was fun staying there.

On Wednesday we left Blanding and drove 5 hrs straight to Bountiful where we would spend Thursday till Saturday camping with Dad and Kandie for the Knight reunion. Let me tell you even with some rain and thunderstorms I had a blast and was very glad that we were able to make it. But needless to say our vacation thing didn't last long enough. We left today to come back down to Richfield to finally start looking for jobs and start settling in. I hope things go well. I'm ready to start work so I can get my mind preoccupied with other things.

I think I am almost ready for school. I have both my transcripts from Weber and UVU sent in along with an application and financial aid. I am going to meet with someone hopefully soon about what to expect from attending a distant education center. I just hope that I can get things all ready and feel comfortable about things for when school starts. I hate feeling lost and unsure about important things. Yay, I have an appointment for next Tuesday to meet with my academic advisor. I guess I should be happy that stuff for school is going somewhat smoothly and that I can still go to school and not drive 2 hrs to get there!!

So now today we are going on a job hunt, and going to try to clean up and organize all of our boxes. We almost have our room ready. But we still have things all over the place and it's driving me nuts. Good thing that it will keep me occupied for a good week or so. Well until we get new carpet and work on the various rooms some more and have to move out our stuff and put it back in.

No more Orem :(

Today was our official move day. I guess technically yesterday since again I am writing after midnight and it will show up on the next day! We finished up all our cleaning in the apartment, got the rest of all our belongings, and shoved them in the car(s). I had been having a bad couple of days just because I didn't wan this day to come and now that it has come and gone I still kind of feel empty. Right before we left Skyeler wanted a last kiss in that apartment and before the kiss even came I was bawling my eyes out. I was quite emotional! So I had Skyeler give back the keys and I just sat in the Saturn. Trying to clean up my face and get control over myself.

On our way to Richfield we decided that we were going to experiment on which way is faster to take in order to get to Richfield from Nephi. Skyeler went through Scipio and I went through Gunnison. We could go only 5 over the speed limit at any given time and we would just see who got in the driveway at his dads house first. Well I will say if I didn't get stuck behind a slow person for a couple min I think we would have had a tie. Skyeler had pulled up in the driveway first and walked to the back and by the time he turned around only 1 min later from pulling up I pulled up. So really it doesn't matter what way you go your going to get there in the exact same time unless there is construction or anything causing problems.

So we are now in Richfield and we have a long way to go before we can make it organized and more homey. There are boxes everywhere and it probably won't help that we will be out of town for a week or so. I hope I can get myself into a schedule soon and have things organized around here!!! Wish me luck.

No more work

As you all know from reading that all of our stuff is gone from our apartment and I have had to stay here with basically nothing. I really have to say that at times it is quite convenient only having what you need and not an entire house full of just stuff. But there are things that I have missed such as my tweezers, random food items, and the denture tablets to clean my retainers, but things have been good. I only had to make sky find the tweezers and bring them up when he came home Thursday afternoon because of annoying little hairs that I get on my chin. :P

So now the trick is trying to come up with things to do to keep us occupied. Today I had my last day of work and I kinda feel weird knowing that I'm done with that company (for now). The past couple days I have been getting phone calls from work like no other. 1 today, 2 or 3 yesterday, 1 Tuesday and 1 Monday. Hmm, I also think there were quite a few last week. some of the things are kinda repeat and they kept forgetting what I had told them but the person I talked to was new and I think the computer program they use is kinda weird. But yesterday and today (I guess yesterday and Thursday since technically it is after 2 am and it will probably say Saturday) the lady kept saying good luck with the move, sad to see you go, if you need anything let us know... Letter of recommendation, or just anything, and I have been told by 2 different people that if I come back to the area (anywhere from logan to santaquin) that I could have my job back no questions asked. I guess they liked me enough that they tell me in advance to come back, one girl said it 2 or 3 times. It made me feel good that they said that, probably cause no other company has done that before. I just figured the first time they said it it was because I was already friends with one of the office people cause I worked with her about 4 yrs ago at Avalon Care Center in Bountiful. We worked on the same hall together and stuff. Let me tell you it was weird being in Provo going into an interview and being interviewed by an old co-worker. Good thing she liked me. But after I got home from worked I went back to bed for some time and then we took a couple things to the dump, drove around, and then hung out with Tyler. As of now I'm wasting time so I can wake up sky and go check out the lunar eclipse that is at 4 am. So I'm almost positive that tomorrow will be another sleep in day. But after that we might start doing some things on our cleaning list for our landlords. Who knows.

Some good news is that an old co-worker of Skyelers put in a good work at Ace Hardware for him. Sky had gone in there previously this week to find out about some jobs and if they were hiring etc. Sky has worked for this company before. He was on the insulation installation crew from the time he came home from his mission to the time we left to move up here in Orem. He is going in on Monday at some point for a interview. Sky's co-worker A.J. was telling someone there at Ace that they better hirer him because he knows the job and speaks Spanish and all what not. I guess most of the crew speaks Spanish so he will fit right in. :) But it wasn't the best job before ( I wonder why?....hmm... insulation.. yup that was it) and all we have heard since we left is that there isn't much work. I just hope something works out so we can get some sort of padding when car insurance comes so we don't have to ask people for help. Luckily enough my checks from Homewatcher (home health) has covered what we need for car insurance and electricity for now and my last check will cover our phone bill but after that...... We don't have much. At least there is some kind of job even if it is temporary. Maybe sky will get a discount on insulation since Chris' house needs it badly!! Well that is the update of my life so far. Looking a smige better but still trying to figure a few things out. But Friday is over now I'll focus on Saturday. Wish me luck!

90% there

I can honestly say that knowing that your in the middle of a move that you don't want to do can be quite frustrating and the worst part is when you are still going to be in your home another week or so. But I didn't really think about how much that is going to suck. It sucks because 1- all of your stuff is now gone, 2- sky is in richfield again doing some more work (alot still needs to get done) so I'm all alone, 3- you now live in the reality that you will no longer going to be in the apartment you love, and life has drastically changed, 4- the house is basically empty except for the necessities. So living in a house that has no bed, table, chairs, books, tv, crafts, or anything to keep one occupied. but at least I have my washer and dryer. I juts hope I have enough food in order to eat, and stuff to cook with. Hmm that will be interesting. I also have an air mattress so I'm not completely on the floor I guess I can vacuum the floor and set that up, I guess that will take up some time. HA like 5 min. Oh well I guess I'll try to find some food and set up my bed and start reading the one book I do have at home. This indeed will be interesting. Wish me luck everyone. I'll probably write more about how bored I am with having nothing to do.

Pains of moving

Skyeler has been in Richfield since Monday afternoon and I've been home because I have my 1 hr of work every day and so I have been in charge of trying to get things ready for Saturday when we move things down. Some things I wanted to get done I couldn't because Sky has taken all of our tools down to Richfield when we still have a bed, sound system, and other random things to take apart in order to be moved so I called our friend Tyler and he brought over some tools I needed. Well some of these things like the bed it is just easier to be taken apart with anther person but it is very much doable with one. Well I really wanted to get things taken apart in order to have them ready so I started on the bed and wanted to move everything up against the wall. Well when I was pulling off the thing the mattress goes on I was trying to be careful to it wouldn't come back and hit me when I lifted it up but guess what It did. It hit both of my shins. Ouch! my left shin feels bruised but you can't see anything. The other doesn't feel bruised at all so maybe there is just some small bruise.

Well I still continued to box and take things apart and I got the spare room completely ready with everything emptied and boxed up. Once I got home from my clients I decided to rearrange the living room after I had emptied the china cabinet and took that apart. (there are 2 that stack on each other, so i lifted the top and put it on the floor) I wanted to rearrange the living room because i was tired of boxes in the middle of the floor and if I rearranged it I could put them against a wall somewhere. So as I was moving the couch I would pull it towards myself and when I moved it towards me the couch hit my foot and I'm assuming to how my foot felt and kinda feels and looks like that I must have damaged a vein. Since it got swollen and all read like a bruise when you pop a vein. Ouch! As of now my foot is a little swollen on where I hit it but if you look at it you can't see anything. But if you touch it, ouch. Kinda like my shins. But the living room is about ready. I am in need of more boxes and tape in order to continue so I guess I am at a stopping point until sky gets home. Then he can make fun of me for running my foot over with a couch and doing all this heavy heavy lifting stuff without him.

Its amazing how I do the heavy lifting all by myself. I will tell you how I do it. I manage to get the box up a little and have a rolling chair on the lowest setting and put the box on the chair then you can hold the box in front of you and push the rolling chair. Works amazingly. Then with the china cabinet I had the couch next to it and the big green chair in front so I would just push little by little and having the couch and chair take most of the way and I just slid the cabinet slowly to the floor. YAY. I'm so buff. Just don't tell Sky yet cause I want him to think i'm buff and not totally helpless. :)

Remodeling

Well I guess some things that have been somewhat exciting is the remodel or just fixing up Skyeler's dads (Chris) basement. I personally haven't been able to do much but sky has done quite a bit to the room we will be staying in. It is the same room we were in when we first got married, and if some of you remember it was this sea green/blue and had Sponge Bob everywhere. It was an amazing paint job done by Skys mom but I am not really willing in staying in that room if sponge bob is still there. Chris has been totally willing in paying for pain supplies and everything we need in order to get things done so we can feel comfortable living there.

As of a week or so ago we have put in new windows, and painted the wall and trim around the room. You will never believe the windows they are sooo old. I will have pics for you guys to see shortly. Some other improvements that will be going into that room will be new carpet (sky has picked out and looks good) and of course paint the ceiling. It use to have that nasty pop corn texture on it, but at least Sky has gotten rid of that and the cupboards and shelves that were hanging up so it has made the bed room even bigger. (I think it is quite a big bedroom) Here are some few before and after pics.

I'm sure you can tell the difference between the before and after so I will not point any of that out. I hope you like the improvements. I know that I do. Once we start on other things like the spare room I will show you the awesome Scooby Doo room!!

Let me know if you guys have any ideas that we can do because honestly I feel that I have no idea what I am doing. I will be needing some bathroom ideas in the future. We are going to try to make it a little bigger so it is a little more comfortable. It is a squishy bathroom. Very very small.

We still have a lot of work to do in order for us to feel that the basement is ours. We still have 2 more bedrooms to fix up, the bathroom, and the family room. But good thing that Chris pays for it and we do the work. Its something, and it makes it not seem so bad the whole move in. Just if I could figure a couple other things out then it would be better.

Changes

After some time and thinking tons about our situation I am a little more accepting of our big change. I still don't want it to happen but I guess it is just our next adventure and I should just enjoy it, or at least try to. Oh and I still need to figure out how I am going to continue going to school. Any ideas anyone? I would need to do online classes but UVU doesn't have them for the classes I need. So if anyone knows what a good option is for online classes that would be great and If I don't go to school at UVU what happens to my financial aid? I wonder if that could just go towards some online classes somewhere? But I have no idea.

On the up side of things I got a new Hammock!! It's a Grand Trunk brand and the material is made out of the same thing as Parachutes! I think it is awesome and I can't wait to put it up somewhere, especially since it is a two person and I would love to cuddle. The color is awesome so you will just have to check it out. It basically cost me like 15 bucks ish because from Christmas the OAC (Outdoor Adventure Center) gave all the employees a $50 gift certificate to Out N' Back. I'm going to miss that job next yr. :( So hopefully I will find something else that is just as awesome and that doesn't require showering people or wiping butts. Even though I am a pro at it.

So sad day, Sky is going to Richfield for a couple days to start the remodeling. I am stuck here working my 1.75 hours a day, so I have no idea what I am going to do the rest of the time. How am I going to keep myself entertained? For some odd reason sky has already put our movies and games into a box. Now what? He did just say I could start a video game. HA HA me video games, I just watch I don't play. HMMM maybe I could play Uncharted: Among Thieves, that is a fun game.......

Venting: Read if you Dare

Life is getting more and more crazy and frustrating as the days go by. Skyeler and I still have not been able to increase our hours or find new jobs. We have basically used up all of tax return and extras on trying to stay but nothing has worked out. I would say that we are at a loss on what to do but the unmentionable that I never have wanted to do is about to come. Odds are that in the next couple of weeks to a month Skyeler and I will no longer be in Orem. We will be moving to Richfield once again and living in Skyeler dad's house where there is no rent, utilities, or other money issues. I think we would only pay for our own phones. So we would save money, that is if we even had a job to get money.

Something to hope for is that Skyelers dad will be getting a job in a new mine somewhere close to Elko Nevada and there is a very good chance that Skyeler can get a job there as well. If he does get a job there we would have instant benefits with medical, dental, vision, 401K, bonuses, and I think they pay for schooling as well. They would start him out at $16 ish an hour. I guess there is at least one thing to hope for. But Chris (skys dad) will be letting us fix up the basement to make it quite homey and comfortable for us and I really don't mind being there in his dads house. The only thing would be the location we're living at. Does it really have to be Richfield?? I was so happy to get out of there last time that the thought of being there now just really bites. BIG TIME!! I won't go into detail on why but one thing it would make schooling for me quite difficult. I might have to drive 2 hours just to go to school since there are no school close to that area that has the degree I want to go into and no online classes either. I swear the world is out to get me at times.

I guess what bothers me is that I'm not ready to move from our location mostly because of school. I've loved the fact that it only takes a few min to get onto campus. I also think we have the best land lords in the world and I'm afraid that if we do end up in another apartment we will have to deal with those horror stories about landlords. Oh, and I don't want to waste $70 bucks that we have put into our garden. Even though the weather is killing them already, but most of the plants are still growing and trying to make it. I don't think our garden will survive in a backyard that has a dog.

I hope I can made it through the next month or so with all this un-surety. I guess I just stress and worry to much about things and tend to pity my situation more than I should. It just seems everyone else's life is so much better. But I could be wrong. I'm not in their shoes. But if I can mention losing a baby, moving in with a parent, and basically losing your independence by having to move out because your completely poor seems to be at the bottom of the pit in my eyes. I don't like it when the world turns upside down on you. But if we are at the bottom of the pit I hope we don't fall to the middle of the earth and that the only way is up.

I'm sorry to vent so much but Sky has listened to me a couple times and is now very tired of it, but the situation still bugs me. So hopefully by writing it down or typing it will help me to organize my thoughts and attempt to understand. Maybe I should make another blog where it is just venting, so I can lower my stress and not have to bother Skyeler with my venting. But anywho look forward to next update for more venting. Just Kidding, I hope I won't have to vent and maybe next time I'll be writing about how blessed I am with all of this. Who knows. I sure don't.

Absolutely Nothing

As an update on how things are going for us, we are completely bored. I swear we have watched every movie that we own multiple times. We still don't have jobs and somehow we managed to feed ourselves since our food stamp card is in Richfield in Skyeler's wallet. But luckily we will be going down there on Wednesday to help Sky's dad with random projects around the house. Better than sitting around here all day.

I am doing well. My cramps have gone away completely and I am feeling great. Until my leg started hurting today and wouldn't stop. But I think I have only been down because of the stress and worry of how our life is right now, not knowing if we will be able to find a job to support us. It makes me very curious on what God is thinking, and what exactly he has planned out for us. I hate not knowing. But at least things are going well.

I'm Still Alive!

Good news guys I made it through a horrible night of VERY painful cramps. I don't know how to describe how horrible and painful it was. All I wanted to do was cry, scream and yell. But I think the pills worked I was finally able to pass everything around 5 am and start getting some sleep. Not the best sleep ever since the cramps were still there but on a lot minor scale. But today I'm doing well just very hungry from losing everything in my stomach multiple times. I am very glad that before all this that Skyeler had called our landlord and he was willing to come down all those stairs to help sky with giving me a blessing. Its a wonderful feeling knowing that the priesthood is there to help and that we have such wonderful landlords that are willing to do anything for us. I couldn't ask for a better place to live right now. I never want to leave this apartment. (well maybe at some point I will). So my wonderful hubby is making lunch and I should help him. So grateful for him and all he does for me. I couldn't ask for a better husband. Life is good. Even in our situation.

Finally, Some Answers!!!!

Skyeler and I finally made it to a doc and got some answers about what the crap is going on. I am sorry to say that the baby is gone. When he took the ultra sound the baby was the size of only 6 weeks instead of what it should be now at 8 weeks. So It has been gone a while. But he did clear up many things from the hospital. 1. He had the summary of the Ultra sound that they did. (that would have been nice to have) 2. He had the actual HCG count. Needless to say the E.R. doc sucked. He told us that the levels were good at around 90,000. Well according to the papers that Doctor Saunders had the HCG levels were at 96,000 ish. So when I had my 2nd HCG test it had actually dropped 4,000 instead of increasing by 2,000. That really does make a difference!!!! So the doctor apologized to the fact that he had to tell me news like that when this was our first time meeting. But He did go and give me options on what I do from here and really informed me and he was just so helpful, understanding, and caring. I will for sure go back to this guy again!!! But now we have chosen to help the passing of the baby and whatever is left in there by taking some meds that makes the uterus contract. So its not over yet. But I know everything will be ok and that there is a next time and everything will be different.

This really has been a weird blessing in disguise. I feel less stress about our situation, (even though it is still quite stressful to find a job), but I feel that everything that has happened has brought Skyeler and I closer together in our relationship and I just feel comforted in everything. Thank you all for your many prayers on our behalf.

Continued

I had my second blood test today and my HCG hormone has increased by about 2,000. So the baby should still be there even though I really don't feel that I'm pregnant anymore. My nausea has decreased and the cramping is still there and at times the cramping is quite painful. Skyeler and I will be making an appointment with an OB/GYN soon so we can really sit down and talk and find out what is going on and possibly have another ultrasound. I would like another ultrasound that is. But I'm happy to know that the hormone did increase though. But I'm still worried and concerned about what is going on. So we are still in need of the awesome and amazing support that my family and friends give. Thank you all!!! Hopefully I can give you all more news of what is going on and if my baby is surviving! I do hope so.

To Be Continued....

I will tell you now that this story is to be continued. Well all through my very short pregnancy I have been having some cramps, I wouldn't say that it was anything to worry about but last night (Sunday) My cramps were coming quite often and very painful and I there was also some spotting going on, but not much. So I would tell Sky that it would hurt he would say I know and have no idea on how to comfort me. Approximately around 9:30pm I had started to bleed quite a bit. And by a bit I mean a lot. The bleeding was in increments and each time I bled a lot. I don't really know how to accurately estimate how much I bled but it was enough to worry both of us. So by 10:30 I had called the on call nurse and mentioned I wasn't going to be able to make it into my morning shift because I was bleeding and didn't know what exactly was happening. Well Luckily enough the bleeding had stopped and I didn't bleed any more until this morning but again it was only some lighter spotting.
Skyeler and I had decided that it was a MUST to get into a doctor to figure what had happened and if the baby was alive. So we went to BABY YOUR BABY and was basically instantly put on that because of our very low income and situation. Then I went and spoke to my supervisor at Homewatch and thanked her for covering my shift and explained to her what was going on. She mentioned that I should go to the hospital asap and that if needed she would cover my afternoon shift in Springville. So off to the hospital we went. This was approximately around 12:30 and we went and was basically the only ones there in the waiting room. But we wouldn't find anything out for hours. So after a long wait, blood tests, and an ultrasound it came back with mixed signals. The ultrasound didn't look good. They mentioned that I have an abnormal sack and that they couldn't distinguish anything, but that could be because I'm only 7 weeks or it could be that the baby just wasn't developing or something like that don't remember. But my blood tests came back very good with HCG levels of 90,000. So the doctor basically mentioned that most likely what happened was that I had an incomplete miscarriage and to come back and get more blood work done on Thursday that way we can see if the HCG levels have either raised or lowered. If they have raised the baby should still be alive but if it lowered it is a for sure miscarriage. So Sky and I are still at a loss on what actually happened. So for sure Thursday I will update so I can vent and hide my tears. I know that if it is a miscarriage that there is absolutely nothing that I could have done differently to keep the baby that in all reality that 1-in-5 pregnancies miscarry. But still, I love my little baby and it is hard to have the excitement of being able to bring a child into a good family and raise it in righteousness and then have it possibly (most likely) taken away very quickly. I'm glad that Skyeler and my family is a source of support for me and will help in every way they can. I love them all and so glad that they are all apart of my life. A big thanks again to my wonderful husband who has helped me with everything during this short pregnancy and this episode. You are the best and I couldn't have asked for a better husband and friend and one day in the future a daddy.

Couch Potato

It has not been an interesting couple of days. I have mainly sat around my house either sleeping or watching tv. This has been going on since Thursday and I have been driving myself crazy. The only horrible thing is that if i get up and try to go do something I feel nauseous, if I sit on the couch I feel nauseous. Friday was the only day that I left the house and that was to go get Pizza with Sky and Tyler. That didn't go over well I complained the entire time to Blackjacks pizza and back about feeling sick. So I went home and sat around some more. Yesterday I think I got up around 10:30 and I was on the couch the rest of the time except to walk around cause my butt was hurting or to go to the bathroom. It has been quite annoying. So if anyone has some amazing ideas on what to do, like a good book, or something to keep me from thinking of my nausea that would be great. At least tomorrow I get to spend 1.5 hours at work. I hope that works out. Skyeler has been wonderful and keeping me company so at least he is here until he finds a job. Which I hope is soon because the stress of that might just be adding to my nausea. "Stress its a killer Sir" Bartok (Anastasia) Well I must get more food in my stomach so I will update my wonderful couch potato life soon. And seriously if anyone has any input at all on what I can do that would be great, or places where we (mainly skyeler) could apply.

Babys Nickname

So after talking to a few family/friends I am no longer going to call the baby IT. The baby's name till we find out what it is, is going to be.......... Tadpole. I got the name from the picture if its development. As of now it has a tail. So Tadpole. Yay its not an IT anymore!!

Not Feeling Well

I swear this year was made for me to not feel well. But I guess now I have a very good excuse. On April 7th Skyeler and I found out that we will be adding to our family. Basically I'm pregnant and about 7 weeks along. Main symptoms, tired, nauseated, sore, nauseous, hungry, and did I mention I'm really nauseous?? As of today I have only thrown up once and I really hope that is the only time that I do. Skyeler has been the best ever though, he is so willing to get me food and almost whatever I want. The past couple days I have wanted hamburgers. But do to the lack of money I have had to go without. But here is how I told Sky. He has told me to go take a test so I did and when I finally came out of the bathroom he was sitting in a chair right outside of the door, he looked up at me and I said it was positive. Well he didn't believe me because he had been prepping himself for a Negative. So I told him again, it says its positive, Sky's response "No your not, your just teasing me", by this time I got kinda frustrated cause you would think this was a special moment. So I told him for a 3rd or 4th I kinda lost track on how many times I had to tell him that I am pregnant and if you don't believe me go look in the trash for the test. Well he had to go look for himself, and I showed him that it was positive and finally he believed me. (Here is the Announcement Duck, notice it is not wearing a bag but it is actually a diaper with a safety pin.)



To add to all my sickness and that of not feeling well, I just finished up with the stress of finals and the close of a semester. But along with the close of school this year mine and Skyeler's jobs at the school have ended. Mine actually ended April 2nd because I worked way to much and I ran out of work study funds. So now Sky and I will be living off of 2.5 hours a week that I make as a Home Health aid. I should be getting some new clients soon. But that all depends on if I'm well enough to take them, but I have asked for no lifting and it was mentioned that there are plenty of clients that only require company. So pray I get something like that. We both have faith that out Heavenly Father will provide for us soon. We are doing everything we can to find jobs. So add all that at once to finding out your pregnant and see how you feel. Then you will know how my life is at the moment.
I also know that everyone who knows our situation is worried but please don't mention that we need to go find jobs. I'm very aware of that. Especially since I tend to OVER worry and stress over simple and small things. But please if you can just help out with the job hunt and let us know if there is anything open that you can see. Sky and I know what we need to do and were doing it but we also realized everything is in the hands of our Lord so prayer and fasting would be a plus. He has given us a special gift of a tiny and precious 4-5 mm child who I already Love so much. (I even talk to it and tell it daily of how special it is to us and how much I'm in love with it. (I hate calling it and it.)) But the lord will not make it so we can't take care of our family. Faith comes first.