Life is getting more and more crazy and frustrating as the days go by. Skyeler and I still have not been able to increase our hours or find new jobs. We have basically used up all of tax return and extras on trying to stay but nothing has worked out. I would say that we are at a loss on what to do but the unmentionable that I never have wanted to do is about to come. Odds are that in the next couple of weeks to a month Skyeler and I will no longer be in Orem. We will be moving to Richfield once again and living in Skyeler dad's house where there is no rent, utilities, or other money issues. I think we would only pay for our own phones. So we would save money, that is if we even had a job to get money.
Something to hope for is that Skyelers dad will be getting a job in a new mine somewhere close to Elko Nevada and there is a very good chance that Skyeler can get a job there as well. If he does get a job there we would have instant benefits with medical, dental, vision, 401K, bonuses, and I think they pay for schooling as well. They would start him out at $16 ish an hour. I guess there is at least one thing to hope for. But Chris (skys dad) will be letting us fix up the basement to make it quite homey and comfortable for us and I really don't mind being there in his dads house. The only thing would be the location we're living at. Does it really have to be Richfield?? I was so happy to get out of there last time that the thought of being there now just really bites. BIG TIME!! I won't go into detail on why but one thing it would make schooling for me quite difficult. I might have to drive 2 hours just to go to school since there are no school close to that area that has the degree I want to go into and no online classes either. I swear the world is out to get me at times.
I guess what bothers me is that I'm not ready to move from our location mostly because of school. I've loved the fact that it only takes a few min to get onto campus. I also think we have the best land lords in the world and I'm afraid that if we do end up in another apartment we will have to deal with those horror stories about landlords. Oh, and I don't want to waste $70 bucks that we have put into our garden. Even though the weather is killing them already, but most of the plants are still growing and trying to make it. I don't think our garden will survive in a backyard that has a dog.
I hope I can made it through the next month or so with all this un-surety. I guess I just stress and worry to much about things and tend to pity my situation more than I should. It just seems everyone else's life is so much better. But I could be wrong. I'm not in their shoes. But if I can mention losing a baby, moving in with a parent, and basically losing your independence by having to move out because your completely poor seems to be at the bottom of the pit in my eyes. I don't like it when the world turns upside down on you. But if we are at the bottom of the pit I hope we don't fall to the middle of the earth and that the only way is up.
I'm sorry to vent so much but Sky has listened to me a couple times and is now very tired of it, but the situation still bugs me. So hopefully by writing it down or typing it will help me to organize my thoughts and attempt to understand. Maybe I should make another blog where it is just venting, so I can lower my stress and not have to bother Skyeler with my venting. But anywho look forward to next update for more venting. Just Kidding, I hope I won't have to vent and maybe next time I'll be writing about how blessed I am with all of this. Who knows. I sure don't.
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