Home Alone-ish

This past weekend I have had the house to myself! It has been quite the experience and I am glad that I had the time and quietness in order to get caught up on some homework. (I got behind because of the trips to Blanding and Vegas and then Skyeler being gone totally threw of my routine. Especially since I was having sleep issues waking up every couple of hours, ick I know). But I am almost back on top of homework.
Today has probably been the most interesting though, I woke up and went to church on my own. No parents, hubby or siblings. Its kind of weird for me especially since I went to the temple by myself this past week as well. But anyway I'm glad that I know I can go and do things on my own once in a while and not always have to have someone by me so I don't feel like I look weird.
Last night I was writing to Skyeler and in my journal and I realized that today was going to be the 12th anniversary of my Grandma Kunzler's Death. It's amazing how detailed I remember that day. I felt really alone and it has kinda meshed into today as well especially with being alone in the house. Not saying it is a bad thing or anything just a learning experience that's all because we all know we are never truly alone. Especially when we are living the gospel and are blessed with a constant companion and that our Heavenly Father is always watching out for us. I'm glad that he is and I think it was because that I went to church and didn't have anyone to talk to during sacrament meeting or the other classes that I was able to really take in the talks and lessons and really know for a fact that someone is always there.
I really do feel blessed with all that I have and for who I am. I would always think nobody would ever want my life it is so boring and I have so many complaints about it. But I know that I am where I want to be and that I am happy with me and my life around me. I am grateful for my examples around me and for the examples that are left behind as memories from loved ones. It is amazing how much I have learned in the 2 very short weeks that Skyeler has been gone. I knew that this would be a time of growth and learning and I was right for it has already started.
I had an interesting though earlier today when I was thinking of my life and today and Skyeler but for some reason I feel that he isn't alone while at basic and that he has some special people watching out for him giving him strength. I really do believe in guardian angels and I can think of a few that would be watching out over him so he won't feel alone just like I don't really feel alone even though I'm "home alone".