Baby Shower # 3

Last Saturday my mom and a few of my aunts on my step-dad's side put together a baby shower for the little one and I. It was enjoyable and I am quite blessed to have such a big family even if the majority of them are "step" relatives they have all readily accepted me and treat me like everyone else. I am truly grateful for all of them. Both on my step-mom's and my step-dad's side.

But anyway I feel that I received a lot of useful items and not a lot of the convenient but not necessary items. I am very glad I got the needed and useful items! Means less for me to buy and since life is kinda crazy and up it the air that is quite a blessing.

Here are a few pics that Alex took. (Thank you stand in Photographer)

34 Weeks 6 Days

So there was a game of basically remembering what was on the tray. Well Alex cheated.

Anyway, I enjoyed my time and I am glad that I no longer have any plans to be out of the area anytime soon. I am kind of anxious and I want to stay in a closer than not proximity to the hospital. :) I just realized that they really went out and made it as color coordinated as possible. I told them that my colors were purple and green! I just love those little flowers. Just so happy.

Week 35: OH BOY!!!

This weeks post is really about the same as it was last time. Not much has changed but I still decided to post it.  Please excuse the pictures. They were taken on my phone and really it kinda sucks having my photographer MIA. :) But at least they still give you an idea of how big I am....

Week 33-34 - I don't remember..

Week 34

How far along? *35 Weeks
Total weight gain/loss? 18 pounds
Maternity clothes? Yes,
Stretch marks? Nope
Sleep? Again this week has been horrible. I am always getting up and I am finding it more difficult to get comfortable.
Best moment last week? Just knowing how much her daddy loves her.
Movement? Yes, it is getting less. I guess she doesn't have much room in there.
Food cravings? Food and a lot of it.
Labor signs? No,
Belly button in/out? It is just about even but it is still in.
What I miss: I miss her daddy. But I do miss being able to breathe normally and not getting up in the middle of the night.
What I am looking forward to: I am looking forward to having Sky home again and to see her little face and dress her up in all the cute stuff we have. I am also looking forward to making a routine and getting Skyeler a job and an apartment. OH I can't wait for our own apartment.
Milestones: Still being able to breathe even if it is difficult. I also think that being this far along and surviving 2.5 weeks without hubbies help is quite the milestone.

Today, Dad and Kandie help me with organizing all our baby stuff and giving me advice on what we still need. It was EXTREMELY helpful and needed. Especially since I was so down this past weekend and stressed that all I could do was cry. I think part of that was having Skyeler gone but come on I am 35 weeks pregnant. that is kinda stressful all on its own. Especially with this being our first. I am so nervous and worried about getting everything ready and knowing what to do and how to use stuff. But at least my brain is a little more at ease with my parents help.

Airborne Training: First 1.5 - 2 weeks

Well Skyeler is surviving his airborne training.... That is a good thing. It has been a bit of a challenge mentally at times due to the people he is around. I really worry about society and how rude people can be. I am glad that this training is only a few weeks that way I can provide a better environment for him to be in. But anyway who wants to read about how rude people can be...  I'm sure reading about what he is doing is more exciting!

The first week Skyeler learned the different types of rolls/landings. Basically with each direction you land there is a different roll. So if you land head on it is different if you are slightly at a left or right angle. Then of course there is landing backwards and sideways etc.. (I hope I am accurate on this info) Skyeler was also able to jump of the 34ft jump tower the first week and he loved doing that. There are taller jump towers but I guess they don't use those as much because everything has to be perfect and they are more of a hassle than a benefit. Plus we have heard that people will stray and then get hit by a car.   o.O   I know right....
Have I mentioned that during training that the soldiers/marines (never call a marine a soldier) they have to run everywhere. So they have P.T. in the morning which usually includes a 3 or so mile run and then they run everywhere else all day. These guys must be in shape if they are doing all that they do on a daily basis.

The second week (this week) they have been doing the 34ft jump tower again but, this time they are jumping off in groups. So that way it is more like jumping out of the plane one after the other. So one will jump and then the other and another one right after the other.  I think tomorrow which is the last day of the training week due to a 4 day weekend they are mostly having lectures about what to do if they land in water or a tree etc... Today the soldiers got smoked for not being enthusiastic enough and so when they were in their groups of 2 they either had to do pushups or pullups depending on if you were sitting in the harness for the parachute or being the coach. Well Sky was in the parachute and so he had to do 10 pull ups and I guess he was in the T10 parachute and they don't have arm rests so he got tired very quickly and the SFC was saying oh really you are getting tired so quickly.... well once SFC got in the hardness he realized it wasn't as easy as it looked.... The nice thing about it was that he was at least human and admitted that.
I know that they have done a lot more than what I have said but lets face it when I talk to Skyeler I get sidetracked by his dreamy voice and I tend to daydream and space out. I am glad that Skyeler has been writing his experiences in his journal. I really feel documenting all of this is very important. Not just because people say it is but because I can really get a feel of how he was feeling and understand more about what he did and his side of things. Plus when our children are older and wonder about all of these amazing experiences we will be able to more accurately describe to them what happened. Plus it is just documenting his life and who wouldn't want to learn / read about learning to jump out of planes!

So next week is the BIG week. Skyeler will have 5 jumps to accomplish between Tuesday, Wednesday, and Thursday. We think graduation is Friday but we are not sure. I don't see how they can get that many people to accomplish 5 jumps in only 3 days. But I'm sure they are use to it and what not. Either way if Sky graduates next Friday he will be home earlier than what I thought and you know what.... I can definitely handle that. I would LOVE to have him home A.S.A.P. I miss him so much. ( I know I have said that before) But still I do and he is my best friend and who doesn't want to be with their best friend. ESPECIALLY when we have so much to accomplish in the next month. AHHHH.. I better not even start on that. Maybe on a different blog post.

Anyways I just want to say how proud I am of Skyeler in that he is able to deal with all the B.S. that is thrown his way and still able to be a good person and that he is able to enjoy this training now matter how hard it gets and to have a positive attitude and outlook on things. I know that he is under an extreme amount of stress with getting through this training and still knowing what needs to be done in a very little amount of time once he gets home. But he is able to do what he can and again be positive about things. I know it can be quite discouraging but he is such a great example to me. Ok... enough bragging even though it will probably happen next airborne update.

Thoughts, thoughts, and more thoughts.

As most of you know I am not a huge fan of putting my feelings or thoughts out to anyone and everyone out in cyber land, but once in a while you just have a lot on your mind and you need to get it out. I have hit one of those moments where I have so much going on on the inside that I just can't get it to process and have my mind make sense of it all.

First and foremost I am missing Skyeler terribly. It really has affected my sleep and just my overall mood. All day long I sit and wait for his phone call and on nights where I don't get to spend a long time talking to him I get a little down. I know that this training is completely different than BCT but still. I miss him and I NEED him badly. Especially with little one growing and kicking and of course not being able to roll over in bed very easily. :) (that was my attempt to make you laugh).  I am so very blessed to have Skyeler in my life and to have him as my eternal companion. I don't know where I would be without him. He really is my whole life. So when he isn't here I feel like I'm not where I need to be. Not that being at Airborne training is where I need to be. I don't think my doc would approve of that sort of training. :P another attempt to make you laugh.

My next thought that is on my mind is the apartment hunting process. There are so many in's and out's and things to think about and I know that I could just go pick one and it would be fine but I am always wanting to make sure we are where we are suppose to be. But deep down I just have a feeling that I need to wait just a little bit longer. I need to know what our income will be and where Skyeler will be working. It isn't that I feel like we are looking in the wrong place I just feel that something good will happen if I just hold out just a little bit longer. I hope that is right. Having that patience is difficult when you are wanting the same things that I do.

For my third thought it is about life in general... How far I have come since I was a kid and all the life events making me who I am today. Wishing I knew more about things and less about others, wondering if I am going to be a satisfactory parent with my lack of baby knowledge. How does one prep for something they know absolutely nothing about and have a very limited number of individuals that conversation about this topic is comfortable. Then knowing how to put it into words so the other person understands and knows that it is important to you. I find it very interesting my feelings on this matter... (babies in general). I never have the same feelings two days in a row. I go from extremes every day. I have heard this is normal so no worries, especially once they get to the point where I am at. A lot of this is very vague I know, but I don't think you want to read about it all. If you do it will probably be in my Journal where I do put my feelings into a little more detail down on paper so you can attempt to steal it. Just know you might have a nasty consequence for attempting. :)

So between missing Skyeler, finding an apartment/him a job, and all my thoughts about life and the next few months plus past 24 years I have a lot going on in my head and it is all jumbled up. So if I am a little spaced please be patient with me. I will get it organized eventually. Just know that I do not feel sorry for myself. I am glad that all things will end and some of these thoughts and feelings will organize themselves in due time. I just need to make it that far! :P

Airborne Training: The first few days.

Skyeler left for Georgia Thursday night on Jan 3, 2013 leaving me yet again for training.... Ugg I hate it. But it is only 3 weeks. I just have to remember it is only 3 weeks. I can handle that, 3 weeks is a lot better than basic training...
So Skyeler flew all night and arrived in Atlanta, Georgia early Friday morning and had to take a shuttle to Fort Benning. He was suppose to arrive before 10:00 am and lets just say he managed to get there with 20 min to spare even though it wouldn't have made a difference what time he arrived because there were so many people there to in-process. What was annoying for him is that he wasn't on the list of soldiers coming from AIT but he was on a walk-in list. (That is NOT what was suppose to happen). So since he was on this walk-in list Skyeler has no meal card and of course our pay is already messed up at the moment so it really stressed Sky out. Long story short it was just a bad day for him. He hadn't slept since Wednesday night and had eaten only once since he left and processing was hectic and when they had formation they kept them out in the cold for hours. Then he was hearing all sorts of crap about the PT test and how they purposely fail people just so they can have smaller classes. Sky was already worried about the pt test because the standard for airborne is higher than his normal standard for his age group.
Saturday and Sunday was better for him... He was still very anxious about the PT test but the sleep and getting some food really helped out his mood and attitude about everything. We were also able to talk quite a bit and I think that helped both of us out a lot!
Today Monday January 7, 2013 he had to wake up at 0300 and he had the PT test. HE PASSED!! Oh I was so excited and relieved to hear that. So since he passed he started the first day of his training and he said overall it was a good day. I am excited for him. I am also excited that he passed so he started and he will be home in 3 weeks. I am ready to have him home now but I know that there is just a little bit more to go. We can so do this.... It is extremely hard to have him gone but, it is only hard because it is worth it. I am glad that he has his phone and that in the evenings I can talk to him and not wait weeks for snail mail to bring me a reply. We are quite blessed!

Week 33:

This week has been interesting so far. Baby has been a little less active but she still moves quite a bit a certain times. Skyeler also left for Airborne training and I really miss having him home and helping me out with things.
I know there isn't a picture but I need to get someone to take one for me so you don't have the bathroom in the background.

How far along? *33 Weeks
Total weight gain/loss? 18 pounds
Maternity clothes? Yes,
Stretch marks? Nope
Sleep? Again this week has been horrible. I am always getting up and I am finding it more difficult to get comfortable.
Best moment last week? Just knowing how much her daddy loves her.
Movement? Yes, it is getting less. I guess she doesn't have much room in there.
Food cravings? Food
Labor signs? No,
Belly button in/out? It is just about even but it is still in.
What I miss: I miss her daddy. But I do miss being able to breathe normally.
What I am looking forward to: I am looking forward to having Sky home again and to see her little face and dress her up in all the cute stuff we have.
Milestones: Still being able to breathe even if it is difficult.