Remind me to stop stressing.

There are a few reasons why I really shouldn't stress about stuff. 1- there really isn't any point to it, what happens will happen and sometimes  you just can't do anything about it. 2- stressing makes my morning sickness worse and it really isn't best for the little one. 3- "Stress it's a killer sir,".... I just hate being stressed out.

So you may ask why am I stressed... I'm sure you can guess especially with the little ones arrival coming closer and closer and me having to move soon and all the unsurities that that brings plus having to find a doc, an apartment, etc... but that isn't what is really stressing me out. Again in all reality I don't need to stress and just let whatever happens happen but I want certain things to happen and I just don't like what might be...

Skyeler and I have been trying to figure out the whole airborne training for a while. Skyeler has been trying to talk to his platoon sergeants here at Fort Meade but lets face it, they have a lot on their plates and taking time to figure this out isn't a top priority for them. So with no info from them I had Skyeler call his Sergeant back in Utah when he was doing his weekend drills and try to get some information from him. (plus he said if we ever had questions to call him) So we did and I am still not exactly sure what will happen but the options are very grim for me. 1- Sky was told that under no circumstances is he to return to Utah until he has finished Airborne. 2- The next available class for that Sky could make it to doesn't start until January. 3- That means spending maybe 2 months without Skyeler. Yes I know I have spent a lot more time away from him than what this would be, but I need my husband. Especially with our little one on the way. I don't want to have to say goodbye again. It is so very hard to do and only have emails or a phone call every so often rather than his arms around you. I just don't know if I can do it again.
OK, I know if I have to I will be able to manage again just like before but still. And if you are thinking about saying "welcome to the military" or anything related to our choice in signing up for this I will use my crazy pregnancy hormonal skills and smack you in the face.... with a chair.  (Please pick up on the sarcasm). *Venting session*  I am perfectly aware that this could happen when we signed up for it and I am aware of many things, especially since it is a reality to us and not something that many of you think of. But I hate the phrase "welcome to the military, or army life" I just figure it to be a bunch of empty words that someone says when they don't know what to say. I can say that NO ONE wants to hear that. They want a shoulder to cry on and to feel loved especially when a big part of their life is not there. If someone you know dies you don't say to their spouse "oh well, its life! things like this happen' NO! you give them a hug and you be there for them.
I know that we all have our different trials and situations that we go through. I know that everything happens for a reason and I do know that no matter what  happens I will make it through. I feel that I am suppose to learn something with each and every situation that occurs so I can help others when it is their turn to experience the same or similar hardships. I need to be better at seeing the positives of every situation even when things are rough, difficult, and just not what I want to have happen. But I am getting better, I still have a long way to go but I am getting better. I just hope that each day I can put a smile on my face and enjoy the blessings I do have.
So as I said before, remind me to stop stressing so much. That it is just a small thing, that no matter what happens I will be a better person for it. There really isn't a need to stress over the possibility of not being able to see my husband for 2 months. I have things to look forward to especially since with each and every goodbye the hello after my long wait is so much better and my relationship with Sky is always better for it. It is hard, but who is better to handle these trials than I am. For I would never wish this on anyone and I am willing to make the sacrifice. My Heavenly Father trusts me and knows that I can do it. Why not prove it to myself and know that I can. I just think I might need a little help, for I am human. :)